Loving Milo

We all know that Jesus loves the little children, right?

Well, what if it were your own son?

Look, I’ve made my choices, but I have never hidden them, or lied about them.

The reason why we didn’t "connect" was because you were so willing to date me, yet when it came time to leaving your house in the morning, you would prefer me to climb out of the window, because your room-mates, you called them friends, are up and watching the Tabernacle Choir.

Seriously. If you can’t be honest with yourself, you can’t be honest with your friends. And are they really your friends if they will judge you for being you?

I told you that you cannot ever live your life as a lie, because the truth will ALWAYS be found. Well, in this instance, it was revealed by way of your son.

I’m sorry for not telling you about him until after his birth, but you were not his father. But, for some reason, God has given you to me, to give me this child. Thank you.

You say you are not ready to be a father. He wasn’t in your plan. Well, I was there too, but I chose to love. He deserves that. He didn’t ask to be brought into the world this way, that was our choice.

I can’t stand that you know about him, yet choose to turn the other way. Is it because you really can’t love him? Or are afraid that others won’t love you, since you have been hiding from yourself? I can’t believe that’s the type of man I made a child with.

Well, in that case, stay hidden. My son deserves a better role model than a man who is too cowardly to love the biggest, most wonderful part of himself.

What Would Jesus Do?

So, when Milo was about 3 months old, my sister contacted his fathers sister over MySpace.  It was a hard decision that had been toying in our minds for a long time, but, Tannith felt it was the right thing to do.  And I am so glad that she did.

It's sad to see however, how much disdain Milo's dad has about him.  The worst part is that he is requested his family to not have contact with Milo. 

Anyway, I want everyone to know about his dad, and how he is behaving.  If that means opening myself up more, then so be it.  I don't lie about what happened and I certainly won't protect his father in his lie.

Here is a link to hubpages.com  This is an article written by David's (Milo's dad) sister.

http://hubpages.com/hub/An-Open-Letter--To-Absent-Fathers

Update -- Where ya been?

Hi. I know, I'm terrible at updating this thing. Well, mainly because Milo and I just moved -- yup. Moved. I have my laptop with me, but, I don't have the wireless internet that I had when living at mom and dads.

Anyway, Milo had quite the time adjusting, it was sad. He had just finally started sleeping through the night. He was really weepy too. I think he missed the grand-parents, his uncle stubot and all the animals.

But, all is well and we are adjusting nicely. Here are some updated pictures of us:

One Fish Two Fish Red Fish Blue ???

Milo LOVES his reading time at night with his mommy. I have SO much fun reading to him. He will look at the book, look at me, back at the book, then back at me...

His favorite book right now is One Fish Two Fish Red Fish Blue Fish -- good ol' Doctor Seuss!!

He is a nosy little professor.

How long can I use the excuse of "baby weight'?

Really.  I NEED to get serious about a diet now.  So, starting tomorrow, or the next day :), it's on!!!

Look.  Here's the thing, I've lost lots of weight before, 38lbs, however, this time I feel as if I have NO self control!  I just eat, eat and eat.

But, no more!  Well, eating ALL the time like I've been doing.  Plus, I wanna start running again.  I really love it.  Nothing is better than cruising along with my IPOD.  Most specifically, The Sounds singing me along....

So, stay tuned.  Let's see if I can do it!  Well, I'm just gonna have to...

Short Hair

Alright, I had been contemplating doing this for the last two years... Finally, got the guts to chop it all off!